to all readers: Sorry for this post. To me, it's just like someone whom I can turn to right now..
and yes,
Tomorrow is the day! Seriously, I'm really really scare.. the moment I think of it, droplets of tear start to appear..today, in order to allow me to stop thinking of tmr, i decide to ask jolene and huiqin out for a bba.. it was great! we had discussed quite alot of stuff.. but still, I cant really get it out of my head esp when I stepped into the house once again.. I wanted to talk to someone about it but I'm afraid I cant control myself..plus, i dont think anyone now will have the mood to listen to me.. everyone should be in the nervous mode as well.. I cant get my family to talk too.. I'm afraid I'll disappoint them even more.. I really felt as though i'm suffocating right now (11pm)! I dont know how much longer will I be able to stand... I know, everything starts to change since the last paper of the exam.. No matter how much I felt angry about myself for not studying well, no matter how much I feel like pouring all out, nothing's gonna change.. THE GRADES, THE RANK PT etc will be the same and it will stay forever!
How I wish there's someone appearing in front of me, lending me their shoulders now ... ... This is the first time in my entire life I felt so NERVOUS.. The veins in my brain are bursting soon and there's no one to turn to! just me alone in this tiny room with my pillow and pooh bear! It's frustrating!
I tried to sleep but all I could think of is Mdm twu saying (with some kind of look ): "You did badly this time round!" perhaps I'm abit too stressed up! but I once dreamt that I failed~ true enough ppl may say dreams are opposite of reality but I still believe some dreams will come true.. though I REALLY DONT WANT THIS TO COME TRUE!! hais.. 10 more hours! I really cant think of what will happened at this time of the day tmr.. Laughing? Crying? I really dunno and dont want to know.. ):
alright, I think enough of pouring and I really felt thankful that I can still write here.. I feel much better now.. Readers, really sorry about it! If u had read till here, thanks for willing to spend time.. In any case, GOOD LUCK TO ALL TAKING A LEVEL RESULTS TOMORROW! esp all my friends, I believe u gals can do well! (: ALL THE BEST !
